Broken hearted quotes

hey ya !! it's been so long that i haven't write something on my blog ..
now here i am, i have to study hard for my mid test for this month , sigh ! its kinda exhausted.

maybe im gonna write something on my blog ..
music is very inspired me , thats why i wanna write them down ..

when u have something can't explain , but music can talk..
world without music , just like living in the world with no air ..
just read below , and you will find the good quotes i take from the good song inspired me a lots .


have you ever love somebody so much ? -Eminem-

Good bye my almost lover , good bye my hope less dream. -Alison Sudol-

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...  -Nelly-

Everybody hurts, sometimes - The Cors-

Your love is my drug - Ke$ha-

How about i'll be nothing, nothing at all to you - Beyonce-

Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems - Eminem feat Rihanna-

How do you feel, thats the question
but i forget you don't expected  an easy answer .. - Stone Sour-

Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same - Bruno Mars-

You make me Crazier - Taylor Swift-

If i could turn back time , i'll go wherever  you will go. -The Calling-

You are the reason that i breath ,
You are the reason that i still believe - Pussy cat dolls-

By : @ClaraNovK

I hate being fool in front of you .

This is not your fault being very rationalist and smart person .

sorry i can not be the perfect like u want .

we are experts in our respective job.

do u ever had the same experienced with me readers ? :(  i am speechless .

what should i do ? :P

i love music , but u are not . music is my life , i love sing , but u are not .

i am not politician , i do not love politic news  , that is not means i do not care with politic , but i just feel that very boring topic we are talking .

sorry . i do really sorry

Woman are thinking with their right brain , you know what is Right brain exactly ??

that is means woman are very touching , sensitive , and 99% use their emotional for every case they have .

and Man are thinking with their left brain , you know awhat is left brain exactly ??

that is means men are very rationalist and logical person . so that is why they can be very seriously one or become a beast when they are thinking and talking .

i am very speechless talking with the rationalist man , i do not why . XD

i do not mean that woman cant be the rationalist person , but we are just different with man  . -..-"

i cant explain about this one . errr

i do not give up for my weakness , no more .

"ill show ya" opps . :P

if your type of the girl is rationalist woman ? ok man , i will do that .

i am try to impressed you by now ! ..

Better late than never

i take this as a feedback to be a better person . :)

Love is just  not enough talking about the feeling, sacrifice and hurting  . that is just happening in the movie -..-" LOL .       i do understand now ...

i have to be the a better person for him ..

to be continue ..

@ClaraNovK

STUPID DISTANCE OR I AM STUPID ?

    i am so sorry before , if u cant understand what i am talking about. ahhaah because my english are not good enough so . i am so sorry . ;P  i do my best and just wanna share about my love story ....

     i was born in Indonesia , and i am asian girl  , but i dont really interest with asian guy  . ok , honestly i ever falling in love  with  few asian guy . but i can feel that feeling stronger than usually when i falling in love with western guy. they are just amazing and perfect in my eyes. every word they are telling me , make my heart melting and jumping. and most of the western guy smart and very rationality . i love the way they are thinking and arguing.

      so what i am going to do are, looking for the western guy by facebook , hi5 and anything else on network society . easier i can meet him just by using internet. just click the type of the guy u want it and then *tring* . he is already in front of you by web cam. 


     What do you think about cyber dating? or chatting with somebody else by msn or ym ? and then you are falling in love with that guy . is that normally ? or crazy thing? i tell you once again , this one posting note just for the ordinary people who are really love with western guy , so they are searching up from facebook , hi5 , and the other else network society. 

     do u ever feel he (i mean the guy u meet on social network)  act like hiding something behind you? u dont even know if he wanna tell you a lie , because you are live so far away from him. u cant take any control about him. he can do anything he wants to do with his friends, family and even his crush. 

     he ever told you that  he loves you so much but we are cant be together forever. is he tell you the truth ? i dont think so , may be he just want to make you happy for a while , what's going on the next ? you cant trust him anymore , because everything he told that was a bullshit. 

     By this day , i know the answer is , start to searching any information by Mr. Google i guess. because that's so helping me so much. just typing his name on the box . example : Who is Maria Clara Novita Kusumahati? and click ENTER . and you know what's going then ? every information i need , Mr. Google can give me.

     use your logical , if u meet that guy by internet or cyber. so u also can get more information about him by Google-ing too . i get so much information from there. but after you know the truth about him , dont be sad, cheer it up . what must to do after you know about him ? 

     ask HIM !!!! and beg him to tell you the truth ! .. and after that , case closed ? i dont think so . but thats help you a bit to fixing your heart :) i tell you once again !!!!! and reading very carefully -->  don't be sad , just because you know the truth . this is life and u have to survive from any trouble and problem come to you .

      ok , this is all talk about my love story , nothing special about this post. but for me you are the special part in my heart . i wish i could tell him what i am feeling . because i cant stand by this situation forever . i dont wanna feel hurting or sick because of him.

      this is all my fault , and not him. because i am really curious about him. so i am searching on GOOGLE. and now i got the information about him , but after that i am so sad now to know that truth .

     someone told me, his name Mick Simon Klaas Ferwerda:

to be honest
I think
he sees you more as a friend
a far friend
or a flirt
from far
nothing serious
if he would live there or you here
it may have been different

but you have to be realistic Clara

 the problem is
you arent seeing it as a flirt
you are really in love with him
thats bad girl
thats really bad
he is to far away
you should have kept it on a low level, a possible love / A far flirt.. adn then it might have grown further if you really wanted to see eachother
it can still change if you 2 meet

its not his fault neither its yours
its the distance
he is keeping his options open
if he was focusing on you, a girl thats far away, he risks of breaking his heart
cause he cant go
and he has to live with that feeling the whole time
meanwhile he sees if there are other girls of his interests
thats how nature works
I love jonna so much.. but I shouldnt.. cause it hurts me everyday
cause I just cant be with her.. smell her hair... touch her..
so thats the main reason but.. I think he at least should tell you the truth

@ClaraNovK

who is your husband in the future ?

     Hello , do you ever worry about your future ? who are you in 10  years later ? and What is kind of job you have in the future ? and so do i ... That's question always in my head , in my dreams , and in my mind. i need to figure out that question. ok That's not very big problem in my head , but the real problem for me is that talking about "who i my husband in the future". u can laugh if u want , but i am seriously arguing about this. this is not joke and whatever u call it.

     i am almost 19 years old and i am getting bigger and bigger everyday . what exactly i am looking for ? in the fact until now i never in relationship with any guy in the world . yadda . and how about u the reader ? i hope u are not have the same experience like me . :p

     If i wanna have boyfriend or crush or dating friend actually i can make it, but the problem is the guy who love me , they are not my type -..-" .. i love WESTERN GUY  especially Europe man . :p they are just so amazing in my eyes .. very very different in my eyes . :( any body can help me ? :p

     i have so many many western friends , but just the only one very special in my heart ! :p he is ........... *i dont wanna tell his name* sorry . :p just call him Bread eater. i want to attach his picture in this post but i think i cant do that , i am affraid he is getting mad at me . :P

     He is come from Holland . :D i love his eyes , his voice , and everything about him . god damn ! he knows that i love him . but i dunno what is the responds from him .. i think he doesn't love me back . he already has Girl friend , i saw it from his facebook . :( but when i ask him about that relationship is that true or not , he answered " thats kinda joke, not the seriously one".

     What ? that's JOKE ? the worst Joke i ever heard . am i right reader ?  why he doesn't want tell me the truth  , so i don't really expecting about his love . :( because i am CRAZY , so i love him . i am never touch him , hug him and smell his body .i just  WEB CAM with him and heard his voice . :(  if u ask me "why do you  love him ? " i cant answer the question because i just dont know the right answer.

      To be continued ....


@ClaraNovK

just call him ROSE ..

     Ketika musik menjadi tempat pencurahan isi hati kita yang sebenarnya, sudah terpendam lama terhadap seseorang tetapi tidak bisa di ungkapkan. Gw sering sekali merasakan yang namanya patah hati, sampai-sampai gw udah ga bisa ngerasain lagi mana yang cinta dan mana yang luka. Perasaan gw menjadi tidak karuan dan tumpul, saat melihat cowok yang gw suka naksir sama cewek lain. Tapi perasaan kayak begini ga cuman gw doang kan ya yang mengalami dan merasakan.

     AH ! Apakah ini sudah takdir bahwa gw tidak patut untuk dicintai? Mengapa selalu saja gw gagal dalam hal mendapatkan seseorang yang gw cintai. Pada awalnya saya sudah kegeer-an atau kepede-an bahwa dia pasti akan menyukai gw. Maka dari itu kalau ada setiap pertemuan atau acara bersama anak-anak gw pasti akan siapkan waktu datang menghadiri pertemuan tersebut, karena gw yakin banget pasti dia juga dateng dalam pertemuan itu. walaupun keesokan harinya gw ada kelas pagi dan ada ujian, pasti gw bela-belain dateng deh demi ketemu sama dia.

     Tau begitu gw ga usah buru-buru putus sama si Kevin (cowok yang gw kenal dari dunia maya, tinggalnya di Belanda)  kalau misalnya si mawar ternyata ga suka sama gw. Biarkan saja itu menjadi status palsu gw di Facebook, asalkan gw masih bisa deket sama si mawar sampai sekarang.

     Padahal sebelum gw tahu kalau si mawar suka sama tuh cewek, pasti gw rajin deh dateng ke pertemuan gitu. Namun setelah si cewek kembali lagi masuk dalam kehidupannya si mawar, GW TUH JADI MALES BANGET TAU ENGGAAA !!! Rasanya tuh sakit banget tahu kalau dia suka sama orang lain. udah mana ceweknya kayak kasih harapan gitu sama mawar. OK , i admit she is better than me on everything. and i feel nothing because she is everything for him. Don't you know? it's the harder experienced in my daily life. I can't stop thinking about him. ceweknya sih cakep tapi ya gitu ...

     OH YA ! gw sekarang tau kenapa si Mawar selalu nurutin permintaannya sang cewek kalau lagi rapat, ya iyalahhh please dehhhh secara gitu si mawar kan naksir gila sama tuh cewek. Kewibawaan seorang pemimpin bisa keliatan lembek kalau udah urusan cinta. sebenarnya bukan salah si cewek sih, orang si mawar yang naksir sama cewek itu. tapi kok gw ga rela ya ngeliat dia bersama dengan dirinya.

     WOI elo mawar!! Balikin hati gw, Balikin lo dasar pencuri , banci lo dasar. Padahal mukanya tuh engga cakep banget , tapi ya manislah. Dia tuh kayak punya karisma sendiri menjadi seorang lelaki. buktinya saja banyak banget cewek yang sampai saat ini gw tau suka sama si mawar. Dan asal lo tau ya, besok tuh gw UTS tapi gw masih sempet-sempetmya nulis di blog ini tentang dia. Dan sejujurnya lagi, gw mau nulis ini blog dalam bahasa inggris, tapi gw males dan  capek. so , ya gw tulis aja dalam bahasa indonesia. kenapa gw mau tulis ke dalam bahasa inggris, ya karena gw ga mau kalau dia baca nanti dia ngerti apa arti dari blog gw ini. LOL .

     gw sih ga berharap dia bakalan baca blog gw ini, tapi gw hanya bermaksud untuk mencurahkan perasaan gw aja. biar gw ga terlalu strees dan kepikiran pas gw belajar buat UTS nanti. soalnya mau sampai berapa kali gw curhat sama temen gw dengan topik pembahasan yang sama ? mereka pasti bakalan bosenlah kalau tiap hari gw curhat soal si mawar melulu.

    sakit banget nih hati gw liat dia jalan sama cewek lain. ARGHH , get out from my mind.. yang paling sakit sih tau kalau teman-temannya mawar juga mendukung dia buat deket sama si cewek. T.T huaaaaa .. hiks hikss.. gw jadi kayak kambing congek kalau udah ngeliat temen-temennya buat rencana untuk mojokin mawar sama cewek itu. temennya mawar tau kalo gw suka sama mawar. Tapi yaa gw pura-pura udah engga suka lagi sama mawar. ahhaha .. dan gw berencana untuk keluar dari perkumpulan itu.

     idih, padahal dulu ya gw ngeliat mawar aja udah kayak ngeliat kakek tua punya keriput delapan lapis. tapi kenapa ya dia dimata gw sekarang jadi ganteng banget. dan sekarang hal yang paling gw takutin adalah hari ulang tahun gw november nanti. Watever wanna happen, i don't care. I just pretend never seen, heard and feel. gw takut ulang tahun gw taun ini menjadi ulang tahun gw yang tersuram sepanjang masa. rasanya gw mau nutupin muka gw pakai plastik item gede, ngumpet di tong sampah, terus gali lubang gede banget buat nyembunyiin badan gendut gw saat gw tau kalo si mawar lagi berduaan sama si cewek itu.

     My last word is , I hope my birthday this year will be fine, nobody cant disturb me. Let me stay at home just with my laptop and my wishes ..

@ClaraNovK

I am very jealous with you

why do you always avoid when I most wanted to talk to you? 

Do You know that the truth I really want you to be present in every minute of my life today. 

and do not you realize yourself that you're the only one who can soothe all upset and worry every troubles?

 why you never had to think a little and realized that I really love you? 

and for some reason I can not linger to be angry with you, because I'm too and already love you. 

did you ever remember me even though only an instant?

you know how it feels to be hurt and hurt because of love.

 I know how to taste it. 

because you taught me .

whether it's love or himself?

what I think about you is something very exciting and fun.

 love is not just to be able to feel the beauty of the god that emanated from his eyes, but love also teaches us to survive much longer.

 love the biggest inspirations in my life to come back alive and smiling. 

building debris on the water, eyes of love he had ever taught me. 

That life is not only to weep and lament all the grief and mourning over fire burning because of you jealous with him . 

let it all goes as it is, thou shalt not hinder walking.

 Let him walking headed toward the truth of love that he's been looking for and he's fighting for. 

if you mean he's your life on hold, then let him find his love in the port and you're the one who realized he was talking about so far.

 and if you love what you are looking for, then your life will seem more meaningful, because not only him the one who you love, but there are still others who love that you have been waiting for a moment to glance at it in the next life.

what it means to love in truth?

if you feel ignored, and do not know where you are going to move because of hurt and injustice in the flue by love. 

believe someday he will feel that it is only you who was meant for him. 

you're the only one of them is always there when he was sad and miserable. 

actually there is not only the love that you gave him but you give all your attention, which surpasses all in this world. 

even though you are in the set aside and the Holly from someone who you love, believe he will one day come to bring the love of you since you'll always look forward.